Never

As I was growing up there were certain things I thought I’d never say or do. You know the kind of things I mean, like, stuff your parents said or did. “Put that stick down you might poke someone’s eye out” or one of my favorites “money doesn’t grow on trees.” I now (much to my mom’s delight) say the things I never thought I would say. As I’ve grown older I have learned, never say never.

About four years ago my eldest son called me and told me he had gotten a tattoo. How incredibly stupid I thought.  Why did he do that?  I told him I didn’t like it. I asked him why he felt the need to mark up a perfectly good arm with a stupid tattoo. I would NEVER get a tattoo! Then 2 years later I GET a tattoo! Mine of course is NOT stupid, never say never.

Have you ever seen a person with a colored streak in their hair? What is wrong with one color? Why do they feel the need to do that? Do they feel that it is attractive?   I think it’s dumb. I would NEVER do that! So what do I do? I get a blond streak in my hair (I am brunette), never say never.

I am for the most part, pragmatic and responsible, ask anyone who knows me and they will tell you so. Even when I was younger, I never did things my friends did, have a boyfriend; go out drinking; and generally being irresponsible. But a strange occurrence is happening; it seems after years of heavy, sometimes burdensome responsibility, I am experiencing an incredible lightness of being.

I love being a parent. Don’t let my preceding statement about burdensome responsibility let you think I don’t.  The joys have outweighed the burdens, but as we all know, it is always about the kids, you never stop being a parent but now that 3 of my children are out of the house and either in college or living on their own, my life has taken such a different turn and I like it.

It seems that without knowing it, I am doing things I said I would never do, becoming a person I never thought I’d be. This new person I am becoming is doing many of the things I said I could not or would not ever do. Let me add to the list by adding a few more: I never thought I would write a book, but I did, never thought I would go back to school at my advanced age, but I did, and mystery of all mysteries not only did I finish but I passed!

I never thought I would find love again but, you guessed it, I did. The thought of ever meeting the parents again never seemed a possibility, but it is. That I ever would speak in front of people and these people would want to hear what I said never crossed my mind. To be on T.V., interviewed on the radio, or be a guest lecturer at college, never seemed to be attainable, but it was.

If you follow me on Twitter or Facebook you know that I like to post quotes, these are two of my all time favorites:

The tragedy of life does not lie in not reaching your goal, the tragedy of life lies in having no goal to reach. ~Benjamin E. Mays~

It is never too late, to be what you might have been. ~George Eliot~

It’s NEVER too late, isn’t that great? Never too late to do or be what we want to be.  Through all the years that have past for me, the years full of heartache and joy, I never thought at fifty-one I would say with such conviction, “It’s great to be me.”